It is, what it is. Don’t be afraid.

I have time. Lot’s of time. I’ve never had so much time.
Time to think, time to read, time to walk,
time to write, time to play, time to talk.

Such luxury. So many people around me,
have too little time.
Or at least, they feel, they have too little time.
Bottom line,
we each have 24 hours in our day.
Their days, without a doubt, are more packed than mine, anyway.

Perhaps I want to say, it is a blessing, and a curse.
It leaves space for doubt to creep up
Which could be worse
Worse than being utterly occupied
Worse than just going with the tide

Doubts about what to do next
Doubts about what is possible
Doubts about being on the right track
No matter how much confidence we possess
We never do lack
That little voice in our head
That says, are you there where you want to go, yet?

Then there’s this other voice
If you’re lucky, it is louder
Louder and way prouder

That says; this is life, my love
It is, what it is
Don’t be afraid
You have what it takes

We used to have one of those IKEA yellow bananas
One can stand on it
Tall and all
& move the body weight
From left to right
I know, doubt is on either side

On either side of that yellow banana
No matter where we place our weight
No matter what path we decide to take
Doubt will always accompany us
To keep us modest
To keep us aware
To prevent us from being reckless
To ensure we care

It needn’t make us less brave
It needn’t stop us
From doing what feels right
From dreaming of what might
From taking it day by day
From doing things our way

So, every day, I sit down
& I write
Word after word
Thought after thought
Thankful for every little sign
of divine
Of a line, that feels like
mine

I’ve started to write my second book before the first one is even published.
What lies ahead, is in the stars.

I walk on
With as much eagerness as patience
& embrace the things to come.